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Originally Posted by Initiate
Thankyou WarriorServant for sharing your experiences.
My search for truth sounds a lot like yours. I will offer insight if something rings a bell and says I need to share. I have never seen what you have seen. I have woken up and found scratches that I can't explain how they got there. I believe I will never know all the answers but it doesn't stop me searching.
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Yeah, I don't have all the answers either. However, I do believe that we will -- eventually. I think we need to have patience. If there's one thing I believe very strongly, it's that there IS a point to all this that's happening to this world and this life; and all that's ASSOCIATED with this life, and I have absolutely no doubt whatsoever that there's A LOT more, "all around us" that's going on, that we just can't see properly at this stage. A lot of people don't get the point (and I'm not saying I'm any different), and some people flat out refuse to believe that there even is one. A lot of people believe we're all overgrown slime balls from some ancient primordial swamp. But because I DO strongly believe there's a point, even though I don't have all the answers, that gives me the will to keep on keeping on and just try to be patient.
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Originally Posted by Initiate
I have asked God to lead me to the truth and slowly but surely I have been lead through progressive revelation. If I say something that just doesn't ring true with you then I am happy to have this pointed out. I post on information that I have been researching and is relevant. As I believe the search has led me too it for a reason. I believe that the "walk-in" topic is relevant to you in some way.
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I have spent a LOT of time in conversation with God. I am always asking questions and asking for wisdom and knowledge. However, I understand that we need to work towards that and put in effort for ourselves. So therefore, I specifically state in my prayers that I am not after a rosy path. I ask that God convict me ALWAYS and not turn me over to a reprobate mind. I ask that God leads me into a path of righteousness and lets me learn from experiences and obstacles so that I don't have to face the same old problems over and over again. I want to move forward. I want to move away from being the ignorant and silly, unknowing state that I am. I have been watching the walk in topic, and I did look at the one that was pointed out to me, but in all honestly, at this point -- I think some people are letting their imaginations run away with them. Nevertheless, I have reserved my opinion, as I do believe there is some truth to what people are saying; but there's a difference between having a "sniff" of a cake and having a "whole cake" to eat.
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Originally Posted by Initiate
My gut instinct, which often serves me in life, tells me that you are strongly associated with "the light". You are infact under attack because you so strongly associated with the light and you have protectors. You live in two worlds on an equal basis. You are in the physical and also the spiritual and are aware equally of both. Again, please don't take me wrong as I don't know how or why I am telling you this. I just do. The biggest problem you face is amnessia. You wake up sometimes in pain or hurt because you have gone through a particularily tough fight. The great thing is you survived and won. Again, if I am way off base then I appologise in advance.
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I can strongly confirm feelings of "amnesia" -- believe me. If there's one thing that you've said above that I can relate to, it's the fact that I "feel" as if I am in two worlds (or more). I am not saying I AM, but it certainly feels that way a lot of the time -- and even in OTHER places in "this" world (at the same time). Throughout every day, I constantly get flashes of things that I know have absolutely nothing to do with what's going on in this physical world (or in my personal life). I do honestly believe that sometimes I am actually, also somewhere else, doing something else. However, I can't see enough to describe things properly, so I don't go around trying to.
Anything I say (if I tried to explain) would come off as rather abstract and like a very, tall, fanciful story -- because I just can't explain it well. So all I do is try very hard to cut through the veil, when I see it. I believe that one of these days, even if not during this life, then after, I will understand what has been going on. Until then, I know I must have patience, and stick close with God.
I keep in prayer, and I do my best to be constructive. I thirst for people to relate with, so that I am not alone. But I get annoyed a lot of the time, because I think that many of those around me are just walking around like zombies -- letting the winds blow them from one situation in life to the next, but by the same token (contrary to what some around here might perceive), I am very loving and caring. I have a soft heart, but I can also be extremely "frank", otherwise people just don't get it.
I just want people to stop pandering to each other on search of the "warm and fuzzies" so that I have more people to relate to. I wont find them if I walk around forums saying: "oh yes, that's fantastic", (while I don't agree), "you're most assuredly enlightened - like me!", "You're special", "Am I special too?", "tell me I'm special. -- tell me again!", "Aaaaah", "music to my ears!", "say it again!"
Usually, if someone retaliates to something that I say, it's a sign to me that I've rocked their boat. My intention is not to make people grumpy and then sit back to giggle at them. My intention is to pull them out of their comfort zone so that they're more alert and sitting up -- because then I can have serious conversation with people, even if it is sometimes a bit annoyed because I disturbed their euphoric, but delusional, slumber.
I don't go around saying only things that I know most people will agree with; and I am not afraid to say something "KNOWING" that I will be in the minority. But if I don't be frank and say exactly what I mean, how will I find the people that also understand things as I see them? Nevertheless, I think all people should say "what they mean" -- instead of redesigning it so that more people will agree. That's "peeing in someone's pocket" to me.
I have a new profile comment today: "I'm not impressed by the slander you have been posting.". I can only assume that I've upset someone with one of my posts. However, I can only say: I am posting exactly what I believe. I think anyone with any amount of sincerity will see that I am not purposefully being vicious or mean. I am merely saying things that people STRONGLY disagree with. I am displaying disdain for movements which I have been affected by, and caused me to go off the beaten track. People are "associating themselves" with what I have said. It is really quite interesting for me to watch, actually. It shows how many people actually need to hear what I say -- because they're hearing it! And they're sitting up.
What I am getting from most people's complaints is: "How DARE you wake me up from my slumber and remove my hands from my eyes! I was in a HAPPY place, and you come over here annoying me with REALITY! You are ROTTEN! Mr ServantWarrior! I had JUST found a way to ignore any consequence to my actions and you come over interrogating me! Now it will take MONTHS for me to slip back into that delusion! ARGH!". My rhetorical response is something like: "Oh sorry, I was just trying to find out if you might be someone I can relate with -- because there's not many serious and genuine people that are willing to face problems and reality, in order to overcome ignorance".
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Originally Posted by Initiate
I ask you. how many times in your life have people just come out and said... "Thank you dear, your an angel"?
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No one I know uses that terminology. I think it is something that the previous generation would say more often. But I get your point. Of course it has been said to me, among other compliments -- but then again, I think such a thing has been said to just about everyone. Everyone does something for others, here and there which causes those others to be thankful.