[Lionhawk]

Don't take what I said as the wrong way. As in the word fault. I too was in a position of asking many of the same questions as you are doing now. I was motivated by terror to solving those questions. I searched for years trying to solve those questions and never found them outside myself. One day I went to the Father of our Catholic church and asked for the churches help. They turned me down. I knew in my heart that God and Jesus were real. I had no other recourse but to find them and get the answers to my questions. It came down to that as there were no other options. Which someday I hope you come to realize when you exhaust all of your options. When you get there it will be very clear what you must do. I was only trying to save you some time. As I have already stated before I was a hard head. And don't take this the wrong way either as I see what I went through and what you are doing pretty much the same thing with exception of the motivation. I can only tell you what I had to do to find out. I promise you on my life that you will never find these answers on the outside of yourself in this world. That is not to say that you can't find the answers outside yourself but it will have to be from somewhere else. And you must go to where that somewhere else is. It isn't here and if you don't mind me if I sit here and watch you try to prove that wrong. I am not making this up and these are not my rules to begin with. I also bet the time you spend is going to be much longer the way you are going about it then the other way. But you are just starting in a matter of speaking so you have all the time you want. It is your free will agency I will respect. So please don't think I am judging you or find fault in your methods as by the time you get there, you will be a better person for it. And much less hard headed and humbled by the experience of finding those answers. I promise you that. So have at it my friend. Blessings on your quest. When you find the answers, let me know what you find.


Peace