Old Project Avalon Forum (ARCHIVE) - View Single Post - Experiences since a toddler

m1* · 10-24-2009, 07:11 PM

Well, to me - it's not beautiful. I can see how a reader might view them as beautiful, but to me they are not.

I will agree that they are interesting, and I am of course intrigued as to many things that have been happening with me. But the most frustrating part is that I don't know so much. It's hard.

I wish I could at least USE what i know, but I can't even do that because I don't know times or dates. I don't know so much. All I have are fragments and flashes and images and INJURIES and PHOBIAS! ..as a result.

Example. I went to the dentist last year. You know what I did? I'll tell you. The dentist leaned over me with his little mirror. I started sweating profusely, breathing heavily and I could not help myself but to sit up in the chair. Then after a moment, I sat back down realizing that I was being silly. Seconds later I sprung up again, pushing him away, and climbed off the chair.

ONLY NUTS do things like that! I don't even know WHY I did it. I didn't even feel that way until I was actually in the chair. I didn't feel bad about going to the dentist, prior. See, what ever is going on with me isn't beautiful. It's causing flashbacks, heart palpitations, stress and deep random nervousness when I least expect it.

10-24-2009, 07:11 PM	#3
m1* Banned Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Earth Posts: 197	Re: Experiences since a toddler - all my life. Well, to me - it's not beautiful. I can see how a reader might view them as beautiful, but to me they are not. I will agree that they are interesting, and I am of course intrigued as to many things that have been happening with me. But the most frustrating part is that I don't know so much. It's hard. I wish I could at least USE what i know, but I can't even do that because I don't know times or dates. I don't know so much. All I have are fragments and flashes and images and INJURIES and PHOBIAS! ..as a result. Example. I went to the dentist last year. You know what I did? I'll tell you. The dentist leaned over me with his little mirror. I started sweating profusely, breathing heavily and I could not help myself but to sit up in the chair. Then after a moment, I sat back down realizing that I was being silly. Seconds later I sprung up again, pushing him away, and climbed off the chair. ONLY NUTS do things like that! I don't even know WHY I did it. I didn't even feel that way until I was actually in the chair. I didn't feel bad about going to the dentist, prior. See, what ever is going on with me isn't beautiful. It's causing flashbacks, heart palpitations, stress and deep random nervousness when I least expect it.