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Humble Janitor · 10-12-2009, 10:41 PM

I feel like I am floating in a boat in the middle of the water right now. No money, no unemployment and no real propects. Yet, it feels very peaceful, very calm and not as hectic sometimes. Where are the angry demands from the landlord for back rent? Where are the bills that should have come pouring in? The bills did pour in but I have been here before. This is nothing new. The last time I was in this boat, it signaled a change in my way of thinking and how I conducted myself.

This is a learning experience. I am meant to be going through this. Since 1999, my life could be divided into 5 year cycles: 1999, 2004 and now 2009. Now is a chance to re-invent myself and the lessons I need to learn from those other cycles is to be aware, control myself and use the experiences as something positive.

Thank you for your post, NB. You got me thinking about the awareness part when I was focusing too much on the positivity, new paradigm stuff.

Am I worried that I'll be homeless? Definitely. I worry about becoming disconnected from a world that I am used to being a part of. The internet has given me many tools to express myself and communicate in a way that I otherwise would be unable to do. It has introduced many concepts to me and I have used what I've read to change my life and to help me to better understand others, which is one of my weakenesses.

10-12-2009, 10:41 PM	#47
Humble Janitor Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 3,201	Re: To Anchor: The Crumblng Foundation I feel like I am floating in a boat in the middle of the water right now. No money, no unemployment and no real propects. Yet, it feels very peaceful, very calm and not as hectic sometimes. Where are the angry demands from the landlord for back rent? Where are the bills that should have come pouring in? The bills did pour in but I have been here before. This is nothing new. The last time I was in this boat, it signaled a change in my way of thinking and how I conducted myself. This is a learning experience. I am meant to be going through this. Since 1999, my life could be divided into 5 year cycles: 1999, 2004 and now 2009. Now is a chance to re-invent myself and the lessons I need to learn from those other cycles is to be aware, control myself and use the experiences as something positive. Thank you for your post, NB. You got me thinking about the awareness part when I was focusing too much on the positivity, new paradigm stuff. Am I worried that I'll be homeless? Definitely. I worry about becoming disconnected from a world that I am used to being a part of. The internet has given me many tools to express myself and communicate in a way that I otherwise would be unable to do. It has introduced many concepts to me and I have used what I've read to change my life and to help me to better understand others, which is one of my weakenesses.