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Originally Posted by tone3jaguar
I think that when looking at the range of consciousness and responses on a forum like this, you have to realize that by the law of averages there are going to be some people that are consciously on the service to self path that are involved with some of the debates here.
I am more committed towards service to others than service to self. I can honestly say that I am probably about 80:20 STO:STS at this point. There are others who will pretend to be 100% STO, then only to reveal who they truly are when they can not hold back their true nature anymore.
The strange thing about this reality is that it is a choice that people can make to take the service to self path over the service to others path. I think what is important is that you are focusing on being one or the other. The fence setters are in more trouble right now than the pure negatives. The fence setters would be those that have a STS:STO ratio of close to 50:50. They are at risk of having their consciousness ripped apart.
I do not think that it is realistic for me to exist in this reality without looking out for myself to some degree. As long as I put others before myself, I believe that is acceptable.
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Is this a gut feeling of yours, or did you read about this STS vs. STO somewhere? If you read it, do you recall where?
I ask because I am at war with myself right now. With my ego. My ego wants me to believe that when I act in a manner that I (no one outside of me has ever called me selfish) deem selfish that I am really serving others at the same time because being my authentic self is why I imagined me into being on this plane. How can anything ever be selfish or selfless, even when in the grand scheme we are all ONE?
The guilt I am feeling over no longer being a door mat for those who would suck my energy dry (yes, I know it is limitless) is making me doubt myself.
I know my spirit knows the truth because I don't FEEL good. Something isn't in alignment.
This hit a nerve so I figured I'd ask. Thanks. :-)
LOVELOVELOVE,
C