No problem Merlin,
We all need to spill our thoughts at times and no one here is there to judge them.
Hope to see you again in Avalon.
It would'nt be Avalon any more if we did'nt have our Merlin
You are part of the soul family dear.
See you and be well .
I wish only good things for you
And if I can be of any help on your journey back let me know.
Loving kindness
mudra