I am, however, in the physical (embodiment of my current life, living in a neighborhood suburb, having the jobs and the stuff) and spiritual plane, DESPERATELY needing the shed my skin, so to speak, and cleanse of the unimportant material things, and desire to move to someplace more rural and more in touch with nature and the land and living less impactfully (harmful wise) on the earth.
These needs will be difficult to do with the husband and kids. I can't just up and do whatever I desire, I have to impress/influence/cajole my husband
The most important unimportant material thing you cleanse of first is your emotional relation to material things.
Harmonize your inner nature in and with your current location and lifestyle. In peace you can bend your reality to more appropriately describe who you are and how you feel, but if you do not cultivate first this inner serenity, you will not be able to realize your goals and dreams.
Such frustration often leads to individuals seeking to then take the world by force. Using external force to control a reality with inner roots does not work and is ultimately why we suffer. Feelings of disconnect between who feel we are and how we feel in relation to the world.
Your best bet is to go within. Stand upon the waters and command the tempest to cease. When the waters are calm, you can see your reflection clearly. When the elements are subdued within, you can sail wherever you please.
Reality bends to a serene, loving will like a flower to the sun. So subtle are its effects, it is mistaken for inaction, yet the stillness of
being is the most sublime action, for it is without cause, eternal...Now.
