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MMe M · 09-07-2008, 07:49 AM

I am so freaked out by this. At one point in my life id'of been doubting. Now I just have far more questions than answers.

Im adopted. I have been searching for my birth parents but nobody, and I mean no one can find any information regarding me or any records thereof. They just dont exist and it was supposedly handled throgh a state run agency. My adoptive father was arian in the extreme, as am I looks wise. I am part Indian, part german or scott, the memory of the adoptive parents was hazy on the second, of the indian heritage there was no doubt.

I too had an overwhelming memory rush return, not everything but I get snippets here and there. When it happened its as if my brain had way too much information for a too slow processor. I passed out momentarily. It was remebering a video I saw on youtube to my husband that brought back a rush of memories. The video was a saucer flying.

Heres what is weird about me. I can remember events, pictures and words like yesterday from the time I was an infant. Nobody even believes me so its limited people I even tell. Every detail, clothing, temperatures, time of day, surroundings, words spoken, impressions. I have telepathic communication abilities with animals, spirits and most people though many are unaware they are projecting. I have memories of people only I could see and hear and talk to and some of these people were there solely to care for me in my youth. Im almost certain sex was not the primary goal but that information gathering is so I was to be not unpleasnt to look at. Touching was not ever allowed. I am imperious and intimidating to some without speaking a word, or even exchanging a glance. I actually try really hard to be extra nice but it is an exercise in futility. Lately I sometimes wake with bruises, strange smells about and on me, and im plain worn out with way worse bone weary fatigue than when I went to bed. I wake feeling like ive participated in a the decathalon and ive the bruises cuts and scrapes to prove it. Poison ivy on a few occasions too.

There are other things but I cannot divulge here. I feel like a head case and honestly, how many people can you tell stuff like this too? Not too many with any kind of authority, lemme tell ya.

All kidding aside, how can one find out their true story without any willing eye wittness participants? Its just a touch difficult im finding.

09-07-2008, 07:49 AM	#2
MMe M Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 211	Re: Andy Pero a.k.a. Mr X I am so freaked out by this. At one point in my life id'of been doubting. Now I just have far more questions than answers. Im adopted. I have been searching for my birth parents but nobody, and I mean no one can find any information regarding me or any records thereof. They just dont exist and it was supposedly handled throgh a state run agency. My adoptive father was arian in the extreme, as am I looks wise. I am part Indian, part german or scott, the memory of the adoptive parents was hazy on the second, of the indian heritage there was no doubt. I too had an overwhelming memory rush return, not everything but I get snippets here and there. When it happened its as if my brain had way too much information for a too slow processor. I passed out momentarily. It was remebering a video I saw on youtube to my husband that brought back a rush of memories. The video was a saucer flying. Heres what is weird about me. I can remember events, pictures and words like yesterday from the time I was an infant. Nobody even believes me so its limited people I even tell. Every detail, clothing, temperatures, time of day, surroundings, words spoken, impressions. I have telepathic communication abilities with animals, spirits and most people though many are unaware they are projecting. I have memories of people only I could see and hear and talk to and some of these people were there solely to care for me in my youth. Im almost certain sex was not the primary goal but that information gathering is so I was to be not unpleasnt to look at. Touching was not ever allowed. I am imperious and intimidating to some without speaking a word, or even exchanging a glance. I actually try really hard to be extra nice but it is an exercise in futility. Lately I sometimes wake with bruises, strange smells about and on me, and im plain worn out with way worse bone weary fatigue than when I went to bed. I wake feeling like ive participated in a the decathalon and ive the bruises cuts and scrapes to prove it. Poison ivy on a few occasions too. There are other things but I cannot divulge here. I feel like a head case and honestly, how many people can you tell stuff like this too? Not too many with any kind of authority, lemme tell ya. All kidding aside, how can one find out their true story without any willing eye wittness participants? Its just a touch difficult im finding.