its funny; thinking about this, as, i see
we oft times, repeat patterns
my pattern, has often been,
men who are too busy for a relationship,
and, then, i get myself too busy,
so, i don't have idle time, to miss them,
and, more often, than NOT they are at a distance,
and, you escape together, once in awhile...
now, i am just too busy having too work too hard
just to make ends meet in a big city...
without going into debt
there are times, i feel, like i will NEVER escape it...
and, there just isn't any extra time, for options
(i am sure, i am NOT the only one who lives this way)
so, i might as well, just build a business
(since, if a business, can work in this economy,
it will likely hold the potential to be a successful one)
i gave up, on thinking, that, a man on a white horse,
was coming to get me
eventually, i will have time, to do some audio /dvd's
and, with the money, i earn from doing those,
maybe, i can go out, and, capture myself a templar mansion
and, turn that into a radiant zone
besides, i guess, i get tired of paying to play,
and, nothing more, than, a bunch of empty promises
i want a partner in life - nothing less will do -
and, as, i am seeing things here, i will NEVER get out of here alone
what is funny; and; ironic about this - is, even though i was alone,
i never built this, for just me, although, at the end of the day,
it is always, just me, against the world, alone -
and, there are days, i think, of mortgaging theplace to the max,
packing my RAV4, and, never returning (too bad, i wasn't in the usa)
here you have to put a lot of money down, to get into a house,
as, a single self-employed female (so, i have too much in, to walk away
from it) besides, edgar casey, always said this area is safe...
i would just rather NOT be in the city - but, out in the country,
and, maybe find a local barn, that i can board a horse at
watching that video on earthship homes on the
www.stclairzone.ning.com
was pretty interesting, what 45,000 will build you--
hopefully a few of us, from this area, will attend a course,
in the spring/summer, to find out about it
i value, people who are caring/kind/considerate and thoughtful
and, funny !!! and, are willing to work, at common goals...
hopefully, they would be resourceful, like me --
if i had someone else, that worked as hard as i do,
it would be half as easy to get all the important things done,
and, then, oft times, i wonder...
do people today, really have time, for a social life ???