[One One Seven]

I have a question. I am quite young compared to most peoples on the board, a highschool student, and always since my early years up until current I have been obsessed with change, not necessarily socially, but materially I've always felt my life was too easy and that things weren't right as they are almost too easy, I've always wished for things in my life to change dramatically just as to force a situation onto myself I wouldn't normally be in or do I even really have to choice to be in. Its not a commitment thing either, I have always just had a deep inner urge to change the current, to change, try and then change again once something was experienced to my satisfaction. Change, destruction and creation have been overwhelming emotions and influences in my life even though I am rarely able to follow them they are always there. I find it odd and overwhelming, does anyone have any sort of spiritual connection or relation to this?