THANKS everyone,
I am so glad to have found somewhere.....where i fit in.
After reading these replys, and remembering all the things i have done in my life, I can do and be anything I want to be, as can we all.
I built a self sustaining vege garden at my old house, used a watering system from our gutters, as well the flow off from a neighbours land.
People were amazed that i built a fence by myself without all the so call essentials.
By that, i mean that i looked, i dug the holes, put in the posts, built the rest,
all by eye, didn`t measure a thing.
Also, remembered a saying my dad once told me,
he left us for the good place in `95, but he`s with me everyday.
"Nobody can make you feel inferior, without your permission."
As for the 47 thing, which, don`t laugh, came to me in a dream,
(Mind you, you are right, i got smashed by a car at 13, shouldn`t be here from what i was told. But i am, for what reason i don`t know? You are right, don`t worry about what could happen, if it is destined, it will).
i also had another dream, where i was taken away and told that my insides had been fixed, and that i could go back now, i had jobs to do that hadn`t been finished yet...
This is the only place i have found where i feel comfortable saying these things, I feel that you won`t all laugh at me like everyone else.
Except my partner, and mum.
Cheers,
Slim.