EpiphaMe

I've been having short bouts of self loathing, finding myself being rubbed the wrong way & rubbing others the wrong way, especially family members. A bit of a hair trigger w/posts... moments of "mean spiritedness" even. I spot these however, sometimes I cause upsets that I regret and then spend time balancing out. It's all very tiresome and disappointing to myself.

Anger issues, things I thought I've dealt with. I've been recalling some past memories and can only think "forgiveness"... but also have been having bits of exquisite dreams, pure love bytes.

And I also feel as though none of really knows what's going on, not that that's a bad thing... just IS.

Meanwhile I'm investing energies into self sufficiency, off the grid, gardening, greenhouse... positive generating getting-the-fingernails-dirty work... honing in on nature that surrounds me here in the country. Have also added some superior supplements to support brain chemisty balance as I seem to be mentally sluggish with an attitude... I keep say ..."whatever" out loud to myself.

So, am I ready? Dunno what to be ready FOR... I'm working on balance mostly day to day.

Glad to be able to voice myself here even tho sometimes I'm harsh.
Self forgiveness here!