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cyzmra ...

i sense you are feeling like a hamster on a wheel ...

you are such a devoted seeker of your truth ... always am i inspired by your journey ...

i understand what you write ... the place you are in this moment ...

all i know cyzmra is that our truth cannot be pushed ... it won't come that way ... the space for it needs to be allowed for ... the space must be free and clear of all clutter of what the mind thinks is ... the container of this space is within the heart ... it must remain empty in order to receive what is true for us ...

our journey is to be aware of this ... remaining free and clear of what we "think" is ... this is the greatest challenge we have on this path because we have been so ingrained into thinking illusion is real ... rather than believing and knowing it is not ...

we have occasions when we manage to free ourselves of what we thought was and remain in what is ... long enough that we feel the resonation of that feeling to be our truth ...

and then we slip out of that once more ... into the old groove of thinking and living as we have ... little by little ... as our occurances of feeling our truth stretch wider and deeper ... remain with us longer ... the old groove begins to feel untrue ... itchy and scratchy almost ... this then is our guidance to continue seeking our truth and living what is ... living in the moment ... feeling less the separation ingrained into our minds ... feeling more of the oneness with all that is ...

closer to our truth ... and you have experienced this off and on ... we all have ... the difficult part is to remain there longer ... but not by pushing ... by allowing ...

we cannot push our remembering ... we cannot push to be aware ... it is like breathing ... it will come when we clear the clutter and just be ... as long as there is room for our truth ... as long as we have cleaned up our containers for it ... it will flow ... it just will ... like breathing ...

soon enough a switch occurs when we have remained in our truth long enough that suddenly the momentum of the process kicks in and then it all becomes so effortless ... no longer do we then have to "think" about the awareness ...

when we conclude the thinking process and live in the moment of as is ... we are living our truth within our hearts ... free and clear of all past clutter of illusion ... no longer are we in that groove of dense ingraining ...

the challenging part of this journey is to know it is not just of the mind ... not just of the heart ... but the process of locating and feeling the balance of the two connected ... they work hand in hand ...

in saying this ... it all does stem from the heart ... when the mind can step aside and allow for our truth ... this allows our hearts to expand and it is the heart which amplifies what we know ...

we then commence living our truth ...

letters, words, symbols, sounds, concepts, etc. i believe are all meant to trigger our remembering ... that is all ...

once we come to know our truth we then find that the language was never really the answer we seeked ...

we then come to know ... we are the answer ...

to set the mind free ... is about releasing and letting go of what we thought was ... and the key to allowing this is that we have to TRUST our selves to do so ...

to trust our selves to do so means we will be open to what comes through ... that is the difficult part right there ... being open to and trusting what comes because somewhere within us ... we know it will be very, very different than what we have known in the past ...

the most difficult part is trusting our selves to be READY for it ...

to let go of our clutter ... ALL of it ... is an open invite for our truth and are we ready for it ... can we trust our selves that we are ready ...

big step that is ... it is all about not what we trust externally ... but do we trust our selves internally to allow for and accept what really is real ... our truth ...

i meant to write a couple of sentences ... oops ...