I try to meditate off and on, but have the hardest time doing the breathing excises. The most success I had, due to some hectic energy with my children
is a freeform meditation in which I lay down in my room (trust me its the only place I have) and breathe naturally. My mind then drifts and very lightly begins to pay attention to whatever sound I hear, or colors I see behind my eyes. Then I pay attention and start to focus on the ringing I begin to hear in my ears, and the vibrations that start to run through my body. When I'm really deep into it, I sometimes visualize in full color, like watching a tv screen, things I wish, or I sort of vicariously jump into the scene and really experience it. Or affirmations, or intentions. Or a very long intense prayer to God for protection from greys for our family and for the world from the illumanati/greys.
That one brought on a continual feeling of contact from a federation. Can't explain this at all really. Also, soon after meditating, memories began to float up and I've been able to connect so many dots in my life, even in my souls long journey.
But energy work also interests me, and I've watched videos on it. I cannot see the aura, except in terms of a field without color. I've always been able to feel it however. While practicing energy work on my son, smoothing his fields until they felt really clear, while watching a video, he felt a movement like something had left him.
What I'm wondering is, since I am very concerned with psi protection from attack, or having my energy completely drained, and since I'm very concerned with increasing energy, is it impossible for me since I cannot breathe consistently through my nose? And I can't. No amount of training changes this. Will I have similar results if I just allow myself to breathe naturally?