Hi lock'N'load. I used to put a lot of effort trying to make others happy, because it was said be be good, and I really strived to be good. Got exhausted, and gradually learnt to receive too. To put it this way, I'm not playing tennis anymore with persons just standing there. But yeah, still fun to raise the spirits of both myself and friends, but doing it for my reasons now, not trying to live up to something. Not because I feel I have to, but because I want to, and other times I don't want to. Sounds like the upcoming change might be a cool time for you. Best of luck.
