[milk and honey]

Originally Posted by Czymra

Thank you milk and honey for your insight.

Slowly I am actually able to comprehend your syntax.

Syntax? You've just given me a money making idea....

Originally Posted by Czymra

As for listening and conversing with my higher self, I would very much like to do that. Yet, I am standing in my own way it seems.
There is much I have to learn to achieve what needs achieving in the physical realm and even though I know that all comes when it comes, the timeframe at the moment is very narrow.

Do you anticipate leaving very soon?

Originally Posted by Czymra

I have relied on just living for the past two years hoping maybe for some kind of Zen understanding. 'Wash your bowl.' In that time, I feel now, I have been able to come up with many subconscious ideas that now all prove right especially in regard to the suggestions put forward on the Nexus 2012 thread.

Like?

Originally Posted by Czymra

I've always been a flow person, not always with the flow, but focusing on the nature of the flow. Life to me is self-arranging and constantly rearranging by the context that new parts establish.
Now I have reached a point that allows me to look at the specificity of flows, symbols on their own, one might say. It is as if I descended one more level from a general presence into a now more detailed manifestation of that presence to learn its specifics. Did I go one level up or down? Why do I need to know more than one level?

If it is true that the whole can be found within each part then it is just a matter of focus. How wide or narrow becomes less important so long as the part you focus on is truly known. Then your question of higher or lower levels can be resolved. To know the heart or true nature of anything is to Be in the heart. The heart of the lowliest part is the height of being.

The higher-Self has inspired many a soul to focus on solving one of life's scientific, medical or mathmatical problems. This raises your concept of 'flow' as it relates to 'specifics'. When you consider that the higher-Self is practical and seeks to enter in to human form to express the practicalities of service in all fields of human endeavour then it is essential to open oneself to the flow of the Presence no matter the focus of one's outer attention. Whether it is teaching a child to sew a button onto a shirt or studying the weather or disease on a global scale, attuning with the flow of the Presence is the right attitude and first qualification for truly knowing the specific object of one's attention.

Which ever way you shake it the first injunction remains: "man, know thyself". To know Self is to know any 'thing' as Self reveals the true nature and activity of the 'thing'. Similarly, to know any specific 'thing' as it truly is is most likely (but not always) the result of the Presence opening one's mind to the true nature of the 'thing'. Ahh forget it.

Originally Posted by Czymra

The ultimate challenge/problem is that I seem to know what I'm looking for, I know how it feels and its quality, there is no question to all of this. In fact, visualisation, mantras and mudras and what not, feel silly to be because I KNOW.
However, the 'tools' for these processes always accomplish to frustrate me. It doesn't matter whether I am animating and struggle with the program, trying to be aware but forget to breathe, meditating but all I hear is people talking in the distance, a sudden bark, my nose itches or if it is about talking to my higher self and all I get is ideas rambling in my own dome.

Understood. When the taste is known the frustrations to knowledge are... well... frustrating. The best tool i ever came across is the spoken word itself. The "word" in the ancient traditions is the christ-consciousness. It can be creatively released through all the subtle energy centers including the throat chakra in the spoken word. Whatever is held in thought and feeling can be amplified greatly by the spoken word, most especially if you begin to feel the flow of the Presence. That's why i find mantras and affirmations effective because if the mind wanders it can be brought back to the intent of the spoken word.

Originally Posted by Czymra

Seriously, someone open the bloody gates.

Be my guest...