Great post Chosen and good reply Jnana. I feel the same way. Since i was a child, i have had this over powering attraction to UFO's and et's. I was originally born in Brazil, migrated when i was 5 to Spain, then moved to Australia when i was 10. I asked my mother just the other day if i was "weird" when i was a child. She said no, not weird but obsesed with Ufo's and anything outerspace. Isn't that weird. Before i had any influence with TV or anuthing else. So i know what you are referring to 'Chosen'.
In my opinion, if you have any fear what so ever about seeing an alien, they will not show up. The last thing they want is to scare you and shut you out. The moment you are at peace with yourself, and lose your fears, it means you are ready and contact will be made.
I am almost there, but in the back of my mind i still think, "what if they hurt me".
Looks like there are lots of us outthere that think alike.
Henry