[Sunnely]

This question is important, and just a quick reply - NOW I and hopefully others, can relate to WHY there was a need for certain intellectuals, prophets and "magicians" to go underground/work in secret societies -

I know there is alot of miscredits done towards large groups of people, based on some rotten eggs within a group, causing trouble.

I have several ideas, but it is kind off sci-fi and I will present them when I have developed my site, so I can be clear with the idea.

We must all learn about psychology though, about psychopaths, narcissism, different anti-empatic disorders, how we can be brainwashed, seduced, taken advantage off... knowledge is vital.

Though, the sci-fi idea I have is involving techniqal equipment, so I will have to get back on that.

ADD: Personally I am too very experienced in growing up in a tough environment. I have interacted for a long time on forums, discussing things that are both involving spirituality (and in that section we have brainwashing, secret agendas, sects, dogmas etc) plus conspiracys (3D world business corporation that in their service or product do go to war, both literally in the physical sense, and intelligence-industrial spyinig to get to know the conquering businessystem to gain more advantage, control and thereby own the market, and control it) we are talking taking over a market in order to control information through media etc.

I must say that I am disappointed at many so called Lightworkers, because I have often found that they are living in denial of what it happening in 3D world. I am open to a discussion about this, cuz who says I hold the truth, I can only relate from my own experience, analyses and I am limited based on that I do not know it all - but, there ARE less evolved beeings / spirits "around"; that do thrive on and get a kick out of inflicting pain, cause disturbance and chaos... do they have that as a task? Is that a divine mission, who knows - just look at how our awareness have grown, and we as people have been kind of forced to "step up a notch" - THROUGH THE THINGS WE ARE NOW FACING - that is: a threat to our survival, right?

So, would we be here in this forum AT ALL, if it wasnt for those that have triggered a need for us to ACTIVELY EVOLVE and find our own higher potential.

But, just becuse WE might be having this loving generous and goodhearted intention - doesnt mean that others are "just like you". SWEET THOUGHT, and I wish it was that "in reality" - but I know that is NOT the case. From experience. I also know, after beeing stalked by someone that is worshipping "The Dark 'Lord'" or what ever YOU wish to call 'him' - this is his own words... He has felt my "light" and are drawn to me - that is surely something happening on a dimension or level that is NOT 3D. I couldnt solve this on the 3D level. Police interactions didnt stop him - he just NEVER gave up, and I got DESPERATE to be "left alone"...

So what changed this harassment, after suffering for TEN YEARS? Me "stepping up" a notch, going into the JEDI-mode - I used my inner force. "Just so happen" - the same day as I was in a bookstore looking at books in alchemy, I pointed out an image in one of the many books I bought, and pointed at an image to my friend who was with me, and said "Hmm, I wonder what THIS image means?".... I also talked about this man beeing in that bookstore, that the last time I was looking into the stores window; he crept up behind me and got close as he usually does, affecting me very negative with his dark vibes...

My friend and I said goodbye for the evening, and I went to a spiritual store, where they sell crystals and give healing, astrology readings and so on. I talked to the lady in the store, told her my story, and I said "Others around me dont understand what hell this is - beeing targeted by those that 'are drawn' to me.... and they tend to stand either very passive and not knowing what to say, OR then they BLAME THE VICTIM; which is ALSO a abusive behaviour... that willl belittle the victim and others put themselves in a position of superiority - they allow themselves to blame someone that asks for help - now that is a narcissistic approach; you just cant stand others beeing vulnerable, and perhaps not having a solution makes others feel powerless, hence a need to "get rid of the one complaining".

So I had to fix this drama MYSELF!!! The police and the judges could hold him for awhile, but, not until he had literally HURT me or threatened out right to do so - I was forced to "live with it". I had isolated myself, didnt dare go out, and was on constant alert mode.

That women helped me by claiming MY RIGHT TO MY OWN EMOTIONS!!!

She said "Others cannot understand cuz they do not have that magnetic or strong aura that you have, and they have never experienced that others that are less evolved and a slave under their low chakra needs (attraction, sexual or simply energy vampires feeding of others light) so, DONT MIND THEM, they cant help you - you need to LEARN that this is your stigma..." I dont know if it is this dimensions "recepy" to mix low vibrational with high vibrational, or if someone of evil-low vibration already HAS slipped into this dimension, causing the "troubles" we have: war, lies, desception etc

She continued: "Though already by accepting this, instead of blaming YOUR SELF, for what others do - will make you feel better, cuz now you loose power and belief in yourself thinking you are your own worst enemy - just cuz you are who you are; different... "

I bought stones (crystals) that are said to protect and strengthen - I bought 3. I held them in my left hand. I crossed the street and went into another store, they sell spiritual books. This time I looked at their advertising board - and to my surprise I saw it was an "Alchemical meeting" - regardin THE MOON, the same evening, 45 min later!!

I took a taxi and went to that place. And guess WHO stepped in the door, when it was starting: the stalker that "worships the dark" - and, the ONLY chair that was available was the one BESIDE ME, to my left.

I got panicattack, I felt like throwing up, and I was so afraid, my instict was to run away. I thought about what the police said: "Call us IMMEDIATELY if he stalks you again, and we will take him to custody."

This time, I descided to FACE MY FEAR. I have learned through cognitive behavioural therapy (KBT) to overcome fears, we need to face them.

So I stayed. And, the lecture was amazing - they talked about the moon, and its shadowsides... It was as if I was in a movie.. they literally talked about ME, and he represented my shadow.

During the lecture, they showed slides of images - the image I had seen in that alchemical book came up, and others I had stumbled upon during my research on the internet recently; SYNCRO-MYSTICY.

I have my moon in scorpio, and ascendant in scorpio, and sun in cancer - all of this was linked to the lecture... The occult is the hidden, and it was vital to know about how the moon affects our subconsious, and how we might be caught in battles that was projections, is what you talk about here.

The man looked over his shoulder towards me, and he was affecting me with his energyfield.. I thought about the stones I held, and that I could TRANSFORM MYSELF; THUS transform the "hologram" of events that was "my life" - so I started to send him back the energies HE SENT ME - I built up this inner strength, shield... literally surrounded myself with LIGHT, and I held the stones, and thougth that I was STRONGER them him - he couldnt scare me or steal from me anymore! I felt POWER RISE in my body - perhaps my kundalini... And the mans foot started to shake, later his whole leg was nervously "jumping up and down" on the chair, (sorry english is my second language) but he "danced" on his toe, get what I mean? Then his whole body started shivering... then I stopped and said to myself "no more war" -

I focused on the lecture, and slipped into another mode - I FORGAVE him.... I "let go" of the drama, and actually accepted the lesson this had been for me... perhaps he just played a role that was necessary in order for me to grow in awareness about things?

I stayed the whole lecture, and as they went over to the social chit-chat, I slipped out the door with my books and took a cab home - and for the FIRST TIME IN YEARS, I felt FREE... I had faced my fear, and WON, I was sooo happy... no physical battle involved, so noone else in the room didnt know what was going on - they just saw him stare, then his nervous shaking, but noone said a word.

After this I havent seen him around, in weeks. I stumbled into him on the street the other day, and THIS time, I felt directly that I was NOT afraid.... I felt free, strong, and couldnt help but to remember the "field of light" like an electromagnetic field around me, that came up several times in my childhood, when I prayed, when I was afraid, who made me feel safe.

Also I have been in situations when I should have been dead, several times all over... accidents, attacks etc - but Ive been surviving miraculously. So I think there is a meaning with everything now.

IF I was supposed to have died, if it was in my plan - I would have died. I also think that I though these times of trouble, was guided - no, I know so. Ive had this "guiding spirit" or perhaps my higher self, giving me clues in various situations, so I was LEAD away from danger.

One time was when I drove through Europe, for weeks, with my ex. We passed many villages and towns. I was driving this time, when we entered a town, and suddenly I just shouted "like a military ORDER" to my ex: LOOCK YOUR DOOR, NOW!!!! He stared at me wondering what the heck had gotten into me?!?! I said again, with darker voice "LOOCK YOUR DOOR, NOW, DO AS I SAY!!!!" - he obeyed. I locked my door (this was a 2 door car, Ford Ka). As I turned around the corner in that village, we got to a stoplight -

out in the street it suddenly appeared a CRAZY VIOLENT man, looking like a freaking demon, totally insane, he attacked MY DOOR, tryed to get in, screaming, wild eyes.. he COULDNT get the door up... then he run in front of the car over to the other side - tried to get the door open, banged on the window, cursing.... The light turned to green and I drove away, the man disappeared in the crowd we left behind us... My ex was very upset and breathed fast in shock, and turned to my "OH MY GOD WHAT LUCK WE LOCKED THE DOORS!!!" I just looked at him, and the event hit him - and he said "But how did you know....?!?!?" I couldnt answer, I DIDNT, I was as if someone else warned me, and I just acted.

This is just one of MANY events, with witnesess involved. I have been told Im a witch, an angel, supernatural, etc etc - many are those that has been scared, cuz they arent used to it.

So - by sharing this, I just wanted to say, that I am aware of this dimension and its drama, this to me IS a war - the dark has MANY times tried to "get me"; break me down and by that stop me... it hasnt succeded... not even when I got so desperate I wanted to end it myself - then those around me have been "alerted" and followed me and stopped me... I now need to accept that there is something bigger then me, that is, larger then me, beyond this ego-earthly role, this woman Jessica... I go into some other mode, and it has been hard to adjust to beeing involved in these "extra weird" happenings - which few have in their lives.

I found out the other day, more about Masternumbers - and their lifetask... It helped me, I can now relate to it better... But, no matter what, I KNOW now, this shift, this drama we go through, even if its tough, we are afraid, insecure and its demanding - THERE IS A MEANING. I know death cant kill me, so even if we would be damaged or hurt - in a weird way, that has somekind of meaning too.

I dont know what else to do then to study, learn and get to understand the "other side" - in order to RELATE too it, and also make sure the protective training; excersice, physical and mentally, to be stronger...

But remember this - the immunesystem that are there to protect the organism against damaging virus and bacterias - NEED to be challenged, if not, the immunesystem are weakned and our cells attack themselves...

Isnt that weird? Do we NEED an enemy or threat to grow strong and not attack ourselves INWARDS?

Philosophical and spiritual question.

Sorry for the long post. But perhaps this could trigger a discussion we need, or someone reading this might be helped or get a needed catalystic-insight, and transform THEIR fear into a mode of "courage", trust in themselves, and in something "larger then life"...

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