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i have been thinking about this in depth since carmen posted this thread
in honesty, i don't remember being asleep, i have tried to locate a time when i might have been, but i can't recall one
i remember being called to from where i once lived oh so long ago, i then travelled to a central location where i met others who were summoned as well
i was one of the last to arrive, i remember vividly walking in, so many were sitting there at low tables, felt like all eyes were on me, i was such an old soul even then
after being de-briefed of the mission we left and travelled to earth
i have had so many lives since that time place, remember many
i remember leaving my last life and looking forward to the long rest i experienced after every life, but i didn't get a chance to experience it, i was called to come again, to this life, it happened so quickly, i had no rest in between, i didn't like that at all, it wasn't of the norm
but i came because it was in the plan, the mission, what we signed up for we must follow through to completion
i remember the nine months of darkness, the transition it was always called, enough time space to ease into our new life before birth
this is why i don't remember being asleep, i never knew there was sleep, never knew of being awake, i was just ... i don't know, normal i thought
well, i thought i was when i came but once here i realized very quickly things weren't as they seemed, everything was so different here
i was introduced to a different kind of energy than i knew of, it was called negativity, it seemed so imbalanced
as i grew older i slowly remembered this type of energy in my other lives, slowly remembering my other lives, recalling how i knew the dark must transform to light, but that at the conclusion of all my lives, nothing ever changed, i always left saddened
being called to this life so quickly i knew this was the one that will be different, i knew this was the life that the transformation will take place, dark to light and love
that's it, that's my truthful answer carmen, i know i've just gone way out on a limb writing this but for some reason this morning, it just doesn't matter anymore, i'm done with hiding my truth, i have nothing to loose, this is the life we've all been dying for, this is the big one, the one of enormous positive shifting and why should i be fearful anymore ...