I think it has been a life long “walk” for me.
I think I always followed my heart, with it's consequences.
Some important steps for me was:
Philosophically and creativity “trained”, started at early age of five, by my grandpa.
And I think, I have always in a way sensed other peoples feelings, I am not sure about this.
Freedom fighter, Always in fight, with bullies, one or several, because I was small (then), but rather bright, and a beautiful young girl was delighted with me, you can see the problem.
So I became a real fighter and daredevil, at young age.
Orb-fed, during my childhood, I didn't know what it was and why.
Always dreaming about our future and our progress in everything, in this good society of ours, and everything was possible.
I was totally unaware that grown-ups could lie, steal and deceive, especially not people high up in the “power structure”, because I was programmed to believe so.
This picture I had, has slowly been destroyed, because I found out more and more about lies, cowardice, disloyalty, selfishness and so on.
More the higher up in the “power structure” you got.
During that time I experienced thought-reading and out of body experience.
I have never had much prejudices about anything.
If I found out something that seems to work, then I didn't care what the surroundings thought.
I tried to meditate at that time, but it didn't work, because it was a very hostile environment I lived and worked in, and my brain and everything was on full speed.
To mentally survive I became an even more daredevil, to really provoke the “evil surrounding”, the cowardices.
I found out that among the daredevils they were very reliable, really very good friends.
If you are incompatible with the “scoundrels”, they will destroy you eventually.
When everything was crushed, I was in a very bad mood, I have lost nearly everything.
In fact I was on the 22nd step of the emotional scale, with suicidal thoughts.
And in fact is was a cat that helped me, because I couldn't leave the cat alone.
So I slowly tried to make all my fears conscious, and it was really a hard time for me, this climbing.
At the same time I began also learn more and more about meditation and healing.
And I began to be more and more conscious about the power elite, so I became a frequent writer of threads and posts against the New World Order.
My “spiritual capacity” increased during this time, especially after I was charged from a sphere floating around two meters above ground within the foliage of a cherry-tree.
This you can't tell to a “normally programmed person”.
Anyhow, after that I got increased “feeling capacity” and healing capacity.
After some time I found out about Project Camelot and I watched a lot of videos and read a lot of papers there.
I was charmed with Kerry's and Bill's way of approaching things, I felt much kindness, and I loved that.
Anyhow “by chance”, you know “power elite chance”, this website where I was active at, happened to disappear, and a lot of other “by chance” things happened, very strange.
I missed that writing on the web-side very much, it was a kind of safety valve for me, it felt good to do something in the right direction.
I believe very strong in following my heart, and always try to do my best and to be kind to everything.
So I found out about the Project Avalon, and now I am here.
I must say I feel very good now, you are all great individuals, and I am truly grateful for that.