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Chris, join the club.

We are all dying, everyone on the planet is dying.
And this is the ultimate lie, with the FEAR attached.
NOBODY dies, every living entity is immortal.
Life is immortal.
We have been installed with the fear of dying, mainly to control us.

We all desire to remain as long as possible here in 3D reality, and this very TIME, as such as time is , is the most stunning time to be here, hence there are billions here now.
We are all ONE, and have concentrated here to observe this time, as chaotic and bizzare as it will become.
If You pop off now, you will probably come back fast, and believe me the youngsters coming here now are fabulous and hugely powerfull.

It is only a biological body that we inhabit on a temporary time period that is suffering stress, and You have recieved excellent advice on how to feed and prolong that , but it is time dependant, nobody can escape the grim reaper, but just as when you cut the grass down, it grows back again.

It is this fear that We must overcome by realising we are immortal, then we can celebrate death again and think of the fresh new bodies we can have.

Hope this message is well recieved, and not upsetting.
Nobody dies, everything changes state.
hobbit

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i'm less afraid of dying as i am upset that my work is not done, my cats won't have me to be with them for the remainder of their lives, and my friends and loved ones would suffer from my premature departure.

i do understand that death is not the end. if it is truly my time to go, i'll exit gracefully. and i'll be back in 49 days probably.

thank you all for your support. i'm not givin in yet.

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You are in my prayers.

You have an immense group here and elsewhere supporting you're existance, as much as our very own here... now. I appreciate everything around me, even the buzz of the traffic in front of the house and the continuous pain in my legs. You are dealing with something beyond my current experience, and I cannot pretend to feel the depth of your pain or awareness.

I do feel the glory through my own pain, though. The same as all of us should. Maybe you can feel it more.

Let's all live in the glory, whatever it brings. Easier to accept in meditation than in day to day tasks, but still the same. It is glory that we are here at all.

I'll remember that, especially by your sharing your experience with us.

I hope that my trying to understand helps you.

Your story helped me. Thank you.

You are in my prayers.

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Chris, do you mind telling me when you first got BP?
I'm curious. Forgive me if you've already mentioned when in the thread

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symptoms first started showing in feb 2002. by the end of that year, it was really advanced and i looked like freddy kreuger and finally sought medical treatment.

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I found this interesting snippet relating to increase in BP in children after receiving vaccinations-
http://www.medscape.com/medline/abst...emed_ckb_ref_0

Admittedly not huge numbers to go on there but did you have any vaccinations around the start of 2002?

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I'm wondering if it is stress related...

it started after 9/11

with what we all went through these last few months it makes me wonder if the worsening condition is related...

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don't think i've ever had a vaccination.

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Teehee! <3 I hope you are doing well today! xoxoxo to your beautiful soul :wub2:

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Ah well, it was worth looking into, if only to see if you can supply your doctor with any more info about yourself.
Keep smiling though, sometimes good things happen ;)

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puting your name in the sanctuary daily , you must be feeling well loved ,dear friend .
still on the look 4 a shaman 4 you .
love and peace , great respect ,rhythmmm .

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It's mostly in the attitude! You have to know and believe you will beat this thing. Your body is attacking itself - therein lies the problem. I watched a video on google vids by Dr Shultz which somebody else had recommended earlier. Didn't finish it before I fell asleep because it was long and had a long introduction, but that guy has been through some unbelievable things and healed himself with the right mindframe. He talks a lot about the pharmaceutical industry as well and I'm sure that being on this forum, you will relate to a lot of what he says. I would recommend listening to some of these people to help you change your perspective on things. Your body is continuously being created and recreated and if there is a blockage in the energy flow or mind, your body cannot regrow the way it's meant to. Positivity and confidence are KEY! They alone will help you more than any medical doctor will be able to. Don't even let up in your mind that this will overcome you and stop the negative thoughts - please! They are self harming and if your body gets those messages from you, it will not help heal itself.

All the best to you brother!

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Have you checked out Beyond Health with Raymond Francis?
http://beyondhealth.com/
He has some startling results with terminal patients of all sorts. Please watch his interview on the front page of his site. Basically he has an PHD in Biochemistry from MIT and put together a simply plan to heal the cells. He is quite inspirational.
Peace
dday

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Chris,

Like Susan (the eXchanger) says, you MUST change how you are looking at this.

Think (because with all of these awesome humans pulling and praying for you the universe MUST respond) to yourself,

"I am healing and returning to my normal healthy self." Keep saying it to yourself until you believe it.

And your picture? Your eyes? They don't seem like the eyes of someone knocking on death's door yet. You still have work to do or else you wouldn't have asked for and gotten our help. :-)

I am assuming that you grant permission for energy work (Reiki) so I will start sending you distance healing. A huge treatment at first, and then a daily "booster" shot to keep the healing going.

I have loved reading your posts in this forum.
You are cared about and will be taken care of.

LOVELOVELOVE,
C

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Healing and loving vibes/prayers to you on an hourly basis! I visualize you healing rapidly; and staying well!! My heart is in full swing of sending all good happy visions for you!!

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About the Baking Soda... Here's a link to the video I first saw about this:

http://www.brasschecktv.com/page/398.html

Also, a while back I read an article about Russian scientists discovering that the "supposed Junk DNA" in our bodies actually reacts to human speech!

This concept would provide a "scientific explaination" as to how prayers and miracles work. (my thoughts anyway...) :)

Here's a link to the article, it's very interesting:

http://www.rense.com/general62/expl.htm

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You have more than enough information here from our wonderful Avalon group but I felt guided to add my own story. Take what you need if it helps and leave the rest.

When I was 21 I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, Lupus. At the time they thought it was fatal.

For a time I lived into this disease, going to self-help groups, learning about it, I was in college and went into my first 'flare' and almost died.
They put me on mega doses of pregnisone intervenously. After 3 weeks of being in the hospital I was still on over 100 mg per day of steroids, I blew up like the pillsbury dough boy, from a sz. 6 to a 16!

Needless to say the additional shock of my appearance taken away with the 'moon face', weight gain and my mental capacity affected by the high dose of steroids, I was in a state of shock, depression and deep sadness.

(b/c of being on them for over a year I have 2 artificial hips and rods down my spine. I only say this to show you I am not a stranger to medical issues)

After I was off the steroids, I decided not to live into this person anymore. I would be ME with a side issue of Lupus, not ME/Lupus person. I learned to detach from it. I hope that makes sense.
I didn't go to anymore meetings as I felt the people there just talked about how sick they were, who died that month and what medicine they were taking.

At 22, I was determined not to live that way.

Over the course of 30 years, I have had 4 or more doctors all telling me I have Lupus.

I have only had two flares both when I was under stress.

As unenlightened as I was at such an early age I was guided to visualize my lupus as the dots in a Pac Man video game and the little Pac Men would eat up all my Lupus.

I would think about visualizing your disease. What color is it? What shape? What music would it be playing?

It is only in your fear of it that keeps it in place.

Love it, make friends with it, understand it.

Now that I have learned about how the mind affects the body, I now see that I was using my mind to tell myself I would not be sick anymore, and I would not live into what the doctors were saying.

Over the years I grew in knowledge of who I am and choosing not to be a victim of illusions, buying into the world of disease. This past January I had more Lupus tests, and they do not show any Lupus present.

Of course this took me a long time to transcend, I guess I am a slow learner, it was something I had to find out for myself.

It has taught me not to be a victim of life's experiences and to know deeply we have been given dominion over the physical.
Especially now with so many 'stories' flying around about our future, it has helped me to navigate and transcend the fear around fema camps, rumors of WWIII, and all the other illusions we are under.

While they may have some truth to them, they still live in possibility of happening, NOT fact, and TPB feed off of our fear from these rumors. Darkness never wins in the presence and the power of Light.

I don't know what your path is and why your body is manifesting this dis-ease.

I can only encourage you to go into meditation and ask your body what it needs from you, ask what lesson it is trying to teach to you.

It is only in the physical realm that we manifest dis-ease, our soul remains in a perpetual state of unity and radiance.

Your body is trying to tell you something. Perhaps something unresolved in your past.

I would also start journaling with the deepest part of your soul. Buy a journal and title it "My journey back to Health" or another title that will move you and state your intention.

Live from that place and new possibilities will open to you.

Be careful of your speaking. Your post, "I'm dying", just created your reality in speaking those words and putting them out to the universe.

Other people may guide you to your healing, but you need to be responsible for creating it. Not consciously creating it, like I want to be sick, rather what is going on in your subconscious, or the part of yourself that you do not know exists.

This is a very powerful place to stand, one in which you cannot be in victim mentality to do.

If it is your time to leave this plane of existence, be at peace that your journey here is finished and you are going home. I say this not to be insensitive only for your benefit to practice unattachment.

If there is something for you to learn this may be the catalyst your body is using to kick you into high gear to find it, especially since we are in a time of transition on the planet.

I have almost died many times, been in a coma where I astral planed all over the world! I came back because I still had more to learn about myself.

I don't believe this to be your case, I do strongly believe this is a karmic agreement you made prior to incarnating here and it will bring you wonderful gifts of understanding.

I feel I needed to go through my own dis-ease to gain all the wonderful gifts it has brought to me so I can teach others on the path to wholeness. I am an intuitive guide who specializes in the archetypal realm and to help people go into their shadow self to uncover ingrained patterns that do not serve them in this lifetime.

Know that you have the guidance of your higher Self, all you need to do is ask and you have many loving people on this forum to help you get through this life transition.

The only worthy gifts are ones that are paid for with the high price in learning them. This is a gift to your soul Chris, rearrange your thoughts around that.

I wish you so much love and peace.

Please stay in touch as to how you are doing.

In Love and Light

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Good post! :thumb_yello:

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Hey Chris,

you've been quiet for a few days, are you ok?

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have been continuing the salt/C treatment

symptoms are spreading a little bit too. still taking prednisone.
ordered pemphitab and waiting for it to get here. seriously considering MMS but have not ordered any yet.

also found a shaman and will be asking the spirit vine for help very soon.

remaining hopeful :]

mostly i'm trying to be focused on my music and life right now. not dwelling on death and dying.

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Sending my healing powers to you my friend

http://i414.photobucket.com/albums/p...3/images-6.jpg

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Will keep you in my prayers and intentions. God bless.

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Hi Chris, hope you're doing well! I was wondering what kind of diet you have? If you aren't already doing this, and this may sound like a stretch but have you considered eating only raw foods? If you're getting all the nutrients you need everyday and as little poisons as possible, perhaps your immune system will heal rather than kill. Perhaps, this change in diet could bring the solution. If you're interested in eating live, raw foods then I would recommend the book Green for Life. Research must be done to make sure you know you're getting everything your body needs and there is great information in that book. I, myself, am changing my diet to eating only raw foods. It's gonna be hard as hell, but it has to be done. Love & Light to you my friend :wub2:

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i've looked into raw foods diet before, and it seems like something i might be able to get into, but i'm seriously seriously poor. they've got this amazing raw foods bar at whole foods that i get stuff at sometimes when i'm feelin rich, but mostly i just eat as cheaply as possible.

pretty much all i eat is beans and rice. sometimes i have potatoes and eggs.

mostly beans and rice though. with some vegetables n stuff mixed in so its not boring.

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I will pray for you Chris,
please keep positive, have you heard of the healing powers of water?

I seen a show on the conscious media network site, it had this doctor on it.
He seems a remarkable man.

Here is the video I recommend you watch.

http://www.consciousmedianetwork.com...s/rfrancis.htm

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ahh chris...

keep your spirits high...

and, drink lots of water -- it is one of the greatest healing secrets on earth

love
susan
the eXchanger

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I think here lies the greatest problem my friend. Your diet is crucial to the way your body works. It's not a quick fix you need, it's a change in the way you live. On a diet like that, you are starving your body of many of the things it needs most. The consequences of this are not pleasant! It's worth buying good food on credit if you have the ability, until you are in a position to work enough to pay it off - what is there to loose?

I'm very glad to hear you're in a more positive frame of mind. Please watch this video - it's short and very important that you consider...
http://www.consciousmedianetwork.com...rs/blipton.htm

You need to muster up the willpower and change your lifestyle and you will become a success story like so many others out there! Think happy times!

:)

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I do not know if the following info will help you with your unique problem, but these are very POWERFUL healing options.

BOOKS:
COLLOIDAL SILVER by Mark Metcalf
FLOOD YOUR BODY WITH OXYGEN by Ed McCabe
THE PH MIRACLE by Robert Young

The above 3 can be done simultaneously. Also, try
THE HEALING POWER OF CAYENNE PEPPER by Patrick Quillin
SLIM SPURLING'S UNIVERSE by Cal Garrison

All the above are near miraculous in their own right, I've used them all to good advantage for myself.

I wish I could do more but this is my best info for you.

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Will send you all the light i can

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I am not surprised that it is spreading when you take c-vitamin.... because it is making the body to produce more collagen... and if I understand your sickness it is autoimmune against collagen, creating inflammation proccess in the underskin....

you have something you can take that help your body against the inflammation that is cheap and effective .... 1 tablespoon of turmeric a day, mixed in the food... dont take it alone, then you will get very yellow teeth... and 1 teaspoon of ginger a day.... the turmeric has a substance called curcumin that help the body to produce a own cortison and it has substances to take down inflammatory proccesses ... and so has ginger ....combine this two to cover up most as possebly...

my mother got a autoimmune proccess in her brain and they put her on insanely high doses of syntetic cortison to keep her alive.... I put her on turmeric and ginger, and it shorten down her intake of cortison with two years.. she could go down in doses quicker, the doctor was very surprised.... she still take turmeric and ginger today and the sickness has never come back....

but you must take at least a tablespoon of turmeric for to have best effect, and to my knowledge, it has no sideeffects .... my mother have eat this now for 15 years and she is 84 years old....

hughs

PS.. sry for my english DS.

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Hej Chris i was just finishing to read some stuff about doctor Carnicom
wich is researching on chemtrails and Haarp stuff effect
and you are one of the many millions having severe different problems in the skin and not only but in many other department of our body in ways that are not recognized and usefull healed from usual clinical knowledge in medicine field...
meantime you are trying all other suggestions my friend
and in order to have a real and clear check out of the roots of your diseases
i hardly suggest you to also read the website of this getleman
and to read what he has as little suggestions with her collaborator dr Cowen or similar (you can see her in the videos he made wich you can find at the beginning of his website)
as a therapist in the field of pyshcotherapy and meditation

i see lately incredibly increasing all different kinds of emotional and phisical disfunctional deseases and especially the ones that are unnatural
as the fungus are
and of origins that are not yet well known or identified
and that even the offices of the different nations that should have to take care
strangely but true ,refuse to analize and recognize in order to create a cure..
wich means
to all folks
we as little human free privatehuman beings
need to support each others and develop some good knowledge about those stuff

so my friend
check out this website
www.carnicom.com
ad check out the info about skin diseases
and surely enough put yourself in contact with those doctors cause one of the could strongly pass you on some good infos about how she is treating herself from similar difficulties you got

worth a tryal my friend

meantime i send you all my love and a big hug wich always help

Marco

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Chris,I hope that some of your advice that you've received o.k. and maybe of some use?Keep on running man!!

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Hi Chris,

I am a doctor and medical intuitive, and I use an entirely holistic approach utilizing acupuncture, chiropractic, clinical nutrition, applied kinesiology, cranial work, attunement energy healing, and body/mind approaches, as well as some other things such as sound healing. I have seen MANY people with "autoimmune" diseases; mostly medical "failures" resolve using everything in my tool belt to resolve the issue.

I have helped individuals get rid of some pretty serious systemic immune system problems, including lupus. Those things get resolved when we look to create balance in the entire system. I'd be glad to chat with you one on one to assist you through the restoration process. All hope is not lost; I have seen many "miracles".

Remember the skin (including the lungs) is the largest organ of detoxification, and when the internal state of your body is imbalanced, it will be reflected externally. "Autoimmune" basically indicates that the immune system is being activated improperly, so we have to look, as one other reader suggested, at the digestive system. Then we have to look at the pathways of toxin elimination such as through the liver. Chances are that your phase II liver detoxification is not occurring as it should, amongst other things. So if those avenues of detoxification aren't working, it's likely that it will find other avenues such as the skin. There is a lot more to it than that, but that should give you a little food for thought.

It is a very complex dynamic that is likely happening inside of you which is creating the syndrome categorized as Bullous Pemphigus. The diagnosis is not the disease in my opinion, but a general categorization of the RESULTS or the SYMPTOMS of the disease.

So the disease behind the symptoms may be lack of neurological control of the immune system organs, or it may be a problem with biotransformation of toxins, or it may be a problem eliminating those biotransformed intermediates. Or a variety of other possibilities: yeast, fungus, molds, bacteria, viruses, parasites, malnutrition, etc. You are unique and the symptoms, while similar to other people with the same diagnosis, likely arose as a result of a variety of unique factors; which need to be discerned.

Listen, I've had immune system problems myself in the past, and it what prompted me to become a doctor, so I get what you are dealing with, at least to some degree. The things that are required of you to get well are this: (silly as it sounds, this is true) 1. you have to REALLY want to get well. 2. Some permanent changes are going to need to be made, if you wish to truly heal. 3. Realize that it's going to take time to undo what damage has been done, at least to the extent that it is reversible; be patient. 4. Know that frequently, to do the job right, it isn't generally cheap, easy, or fun. 5. There are no shortcuts that I've ever found, nor any magic bullets.

I understand your financial situation and believe me, I understand as I had to find a way to get through my issues. Know that it is possible to be able to find the means...if you are willing to do what is required otherwise.

Feel free to send me a private message, I'd be glad to assist and guide you toward resolving this issue.

Have faith and good luck to you.

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:wub2::wub2::wub2:

Sending you love and good thoughts that you will heal.....

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cioa chris......sorry to hear of your troubles......i read your post that said you are poor.....well the cheapest cure is a good old fast....have you tried this ?? it´s almost free.....i´ve had some serios problems with my liver......but for 8 years i´ve been doing alot of fastig and i cured my liver......the first fast is a bit rough but after it´s not so bad.... there are meny differant ways to fast .....so i´m sure there is one that can fit your life style.....if you are intrested send me a message and i can explain more........anyway i´m sendin ya some healing vibes........

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Don't know if it will help but I would suggest hot baths several times a day with baking soda in the water and rubbed on the skin. And a drink of Apple Cider Vinegar, baking soda, cinnamon, honey and distilled water. I suspect that would cure skin cancer don't know about this condition.

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Hi Chris,

You may already have approached in this way and I'm no expert, but have been exposed to alternative health since I was a kid. Pure(steam distilled) water- 1/2 your weight in ounces everyday, organic vegis & fruit, and organic grains- no animal products (Not forever necessarily). Kombucha tea- Probiotics- Yerba Mate' All good for strengthening immune system. Meditation, forgiveness, and knowing all will be okay. My loving thoughts are with you and your healing process.

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You can heal yourself... check this out...
http://www.ch3nutrigenomics.com/phpBB2/welcome.html

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Have you tried hulda clarks site http://www.drclark.net/ and colloidal silver as a possible alternative? Best wishes to you!