Old Project Avalon Forum (ARCHIVE) - This break up shows why we humans aren't ready to transcend. Or maybe ascend.

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Originally Posted by orthodoxymoron (Post 260563)

Why couldn't certain posting and moderating guidelines have been applied to the current Avalon...making Avalon 2 unnecessary? I can understand refining the forum to make it more pastoral and user friendly...but I still have a problem with the move and with other happenings over the past several weeks. It seems as though something was deemed to be too hot to handle within this forum...and that it had to be shut-down.

ditto ortho ... this is what i have been feeling ever since the birth of PA2 was announced ...
with rapid haste ...
what were we getting too close too .... hmm ...
thuban i feel ... the drama evoked from that thread ... a distraction ...
i feel ... whatever was becoming potentially 'too hot to handle' ... stemmed beyond ...

so ... the gap ... between here and there ... PA and PA2 ...
within that gap ... i feel a void ... a loss ... of something that was once BEcoming ...
flourishing ...
but like a beautiful rose ... had to be snipped from its growth ... just as it was blooming ...
in its prime ... snip snip ...

a seed ... for yet another flower ... planted ...
not a rose this time ... but a similar flower ... with promises of similar beauty ... as it grows ...

know what i think?
know what i feel?
i feel the new flower ... will be allowed to grow ...
but will it ... ever be 'permitted' ... to bloom ... to maturity ...
or ... will that flower too ... be 'too hot to handle' ...
its truth ... too beautiful to actually be exposed ...

this saddens me tremendously ...
not so much the obvious loss of our original avalon ... the surface of that ...
but the loss ... of something much deeper than that ...

i have swam these oceans for such a long time ... not just this life experience ...
but oh so many others ...
the ocean waters ... they never change ...
they are ... what has been ... what is and what can BE ...
they are ... potentiality ...
no definition of past ... present and future ...
in our ocean waters ... all is one ...

and i have come across the stench of rottenn fish ... many times before ...
not 'rotting' fish ... for they have not died ...
their agendas though ... are what smell terribly so ...

history ... repeating itself ... once again ...
once again ... re-direction ...
ask yourselves ... why ...

this gap ... transition from here to there ... the void and the loss of something very significant i feel ...
is what is making it difficult for me ... to pack my bags ... and leave ...
as i know i have done ... compliantly ... at times reluctantly ... many times prior ... in many lives ... within many scenarios ...
but ... what is different now ... is that i am feeling it ... for what it is ...
once again ... re-direction ... from truth ...

and you can think ... that this turtle ... has travelled in the salt waters much too long for its own good ...
and that is fine ...

i am elated by these times now ... the energy of this shift ... shift to something new that i feel must and will come to BE ...
and yet i am saddened ... to smell that fishy smell once again ...
having said that ... i feel it to be less and less pungent ... in this ocean ...
the shift to the new i feel is definately in process ... this is good ... most beneficial ...

damn ... i just feel so sad of what has happened here ...
beneath the surface ...

namaste ...

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