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kriya 12-24-2009 11:11 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Just to clarify what I mean by suffering. Although God doesn't create suffering, He, himself doesn't suffer, He isn't affected by karma or suffering, like we are. We should view life like God does, as a huge cosmic drama.

However,IMO, I think a better way to view it is to say, that God does suffer through each of us as we suffer because He is part of us. I know anyone reading this will think its a complete contradiction, but the mysreries of life cannot be fathomed by rational thought, it goes beyond thought.

But for me, I take issue with the whole set up. If God doesn't have karma or suffering then nor should we.

Love,

Kriya

Leunamros 12-24-2009 11:40 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by WinterWolf (Post 208286)
Either this is a big tongue in cheek post or you are actually serious about this.

If this is a serious post then what is the point of you being on here or anywhere? If you think you know everything already then you have stopped growing or learning in any meaningful way...

Do you think you could give me the winning Megamillion lottery numbers for the next couple of decades to come? I think I could feed a lot of people with that sort of wealth.


Winter Wolf


Im actually serious with a bit of sense of humour included. My point in being here is keep looking, if there is anything new worth considering. Right now, and since itīs foundation, there isnīt anything useful yet (for me). This kinds of places gives an slight opportunity to see things we havenīt yet seen humans do. They are not based on official institutions.

I havent stopped learning, or growing, that never ends, but, what happens in my case is that what 99,9999% of what people offers, i already know, or itīs useless. We are living in a limited planet, with a limited number of people over it, thatīs why this can happen.

UncleJohn 12-24-2009 12:10 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Actually it is very easy to deal with the 'boredom' of existence.

Just go to a forum like project avalon and start a troll thread with the title this one has.

Watch everyone trying to solve your problem for you.

I would also suggest getting an ant farm for entertainment.

Leunamros 12-24-2009 12:14 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
this is not a troll thread, at least for me.

morguana 12-24-2009 12:40 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by UncleJohn (Post 208299)
Actually it is very easy to deal with the 'boredom' of existence.

Just go to a forum like project avalon and start a troll thread with the title this one has.

Watch everyone trying to solve your problem for you.

I would also suggest getting an ant farm for entertainment.

:lmao:
i personally can not understand how anyone can be bored......not when the mind and soul can go off travelling :lol3:
always someting lovely to do.......being lovely to others is a start! bringing peace and light to those around you would stop the boredom
mogs x

greybeard 12-24-2009 01:02 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by kriya (Post 208293)
Just to clarify what I mean by suffering. Although God doesn't create suffering, He, himself doesn't suffer, He isn't affected by karma or suffering, like we are. We should view life like God does, as a huge cosmic drama.

However,IMO, I think a better way to view it is to say, that God does suffer through each of us as we suffer because He is part of us. I know anyone reading this will think its a complete contradiction, but the mysreries of life cannot be fathomed by rational thought, it goes beyond thought.

But for me, I take issue with the whole set up. If God doesn't have karma or suffering then nor should we.

Love,

Kriya

Hi Kriya
On occasion I have felt like you that the human race has a raw deal.
However we dont have to suffer if we realise that there are consequences for our actions and that is part of karma.
One guru on being asked why a certain pair were in the condition they were in.
The blind one pusing the wheel chair of the crippled one.
The reply. They were torturers in a past life. One blinded prisoners the other broke legs, so this could be described as pergetory (Earth) a chance to learn from previous mistakes. Even though the self dosent remember past lives the higher Self know exactly what went on and will bring about situations for the self to make right and evolve.
self is coming to know that it is Self. Self realization
Thats the essence of it as I understand it.
Rgards Chris

WinterWolf 12-24-2009 07:35 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Leunamros (Post 208295)
Im actually serious with a bit of sense of humour included. My point in being here is keep looking, if there is anything new worth considering. Right now, and since itīs foundation, there isnīt anything useful yet (for me). This kinds of places gives an slight opportunity to see things we havenīt yet seen humans do. They are not based on official institutions.

I havent stopped learning, or growing, that never ends, but, what happens in my case is that what 99,9999% of what people offers, i already know, or itīs useless. We are living in a limited planet, with a limited number of people over it, thatīs why this can happen.

So you have merely scratched the surface and have not
found the depths.

Perhaps you should seek harder. By saying I know everything already so now I am bored seems a bit like a cop out to me.

Your original post did not imply you were still learning and growing. If you were, how could you be bored?

Curious Winter Wolf

Leunamros 12-24-2009 08:27 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
I know all that people offered to me, all that i needed to know from what they could offer, thatīs the "all i know". To get more is harder and harder to find because humanity is in one specific place, with one specific general state of consciousness. When you go too much beyond such general state, and when you are well aware of such, the dangers you face are boredom, too; not only loneliness, and isolation. Truthseeking is a very risky endeavour. You sanity is at stake, and mine has been several times, i have had to fight hard to keep my mind balanced with what i progressively had learnt.

In my case to continue with a normal growing i should go off this planet to see whatīs beyond this tiny space.

Not meant to be arrogant, or presume to be "better than", just different, but even here people are light years behind me. Because i did the same in the past that most of you are doing here right now, i asked myself the same questions, and reached my own conclusions; my path took me to another place. Who knows where it will took you, in your personal cases?, we had some questions in common in my past.

Everyday that passes by is harder to find real food for thought. There is a stupid 97% fearmongering mixed with phony promises everywhere. Thatīs very sad.

BROOK 12-24-2009 08:39 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
I agree Winterwolf....the surface has only been scratched. Maybe looking on the outside is not the answer.

I have found that looking inside, and finding answers, have actually brought a different vision to what is outside. And things look much different. Much more beautiful, in color, and for what it's worth, things have a different meaning.

Keep in mind that there has been a dumbing down that has been exposed, and once you can see past that, things look much different. And it's a whole new learning process.

The things you perceived to be true, are now different, and it's a whole new ballgame. Much more exciting..filled with much more life, and brilliance.

If you are still bored with this new existence..then you really have only scratched the surface.

Leunamros 12-24-2009 08:46 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
No, "the inside" is not the answer. To learn more you have to look at everything. And i mean everything, not just your inside, thatīs not good.

Even from boredom there are many things to be learnt. But to do so, you have to be bored, indeed. I talk from experience.

People decide themselves what is a surface and what is not. Many of you maybe donīt get that. Fractally speaking, you are ALWAYS scratching surfaces, no matter how far you think you have gone.

BROOK 12-24-2009 08:54 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Leunamros (Post 208579)
No, "the inside" is not the answer. To learn more you have to look at everything. And i mean everything, not just your inside, thatīs not good.

Even from boredom there are many things to be learnt. But to do so, you have to be bored, indeed. I talk from experience.

People decide themselves what is a surface and what is not. Many of you maybe donīt get that. Fractally speaking, you are ALWAYS scratching surfaces, no matter how far you think you have gone.

Well, in my experience, I have found that things will look much different after you've discovered the truth that you carry inside.

And it is far from boring. And also a neverending amount of information can be attained. The truth they did not want you to see. :naughty:

THE eXchanger 12-24-2009 09:05 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
YOU become friends with Brook, from 6pm to 6am
and, become friends with Tango from 6am to 6pm :mfr_lol:

THE eXchanger 12-24-2009 09:06 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
the real power is in eXchange

- so, you create as much `good`eXchange as you can !!!

BROOK 12-24-2009 09:22 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
:tease:
Quote:

Originally Posted by THE eXchanger (Post 208599)
YOU become friends with Brook, from 6pm to 6am
and, become friends with Tango from 6am to 6pm :mfr_lol:

Be careful what she suggests...I've been told I'm a real roller coaster...:tease:

Majorion 12-24-2009 09:30 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Boredom..................

Just deal with it :cup: :naughty:

WinterWolf 12-24-2009 10:14 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Leunamros (Post 208564)
I know all that people offered to me, all that i needed to know from what they could offer, thatīs the "all i know". To get more is harder and harder to find because humanity is in one specific place, with one specific general state of consciousness. When you go too much beyond such general state, and when you are well aware of such, the dangers you face are boredom, too; not only loneliness, and isolation. Truthseeking is a very risky endeavour. You sanity is at stake, and mine has been several times, i have had to fight hard to keep my mind balanced with what i progressively had learnt.



In my case to continue with a normal growing i should go off this planet to see whatīs beyond this tiny space.
Everyday that passes by is harder to find real food for thought. There is a stupid 97% fearmongering mixed with phony promises everywhere. Thatīs very sad.

I had to alter the quote to make room so I could see where I'm typing. Typing on the phone isn't always fun. xD

This tiny planet and the people who live on it each have somethng to offer whether you think you already know it or not. Once more your scoe is far too narrow. You are only scratching different surfaces an saying you already know it all.

If you have already learned everything already then why do you continue to reincarnated into a world/dimension/plane/reality where you know it all already? If you continue to come back time and time again to the same "space" then you have not found all that there is to find.

I could go wrong telling people I have existed long before anyone knew what time was but why? I was, am, will be being for it is what I am and have chosen to be. I am energy housed in a physical form. You may destroy my physical shell but I will continue to exist as energy exist in all things. It can not be destroyed but changed.

Then again me going around spouting what I just did would smack of hubris and ego. It may be true of me though others may not belebe me but that does not bother me in the least. I am what I am even though I have yet to fully comprehend all that is me.

Whether I agree with the views of other posters is immaterial. It is he difference in knowledge and views that allow us to grow.

Knowing myself is one surface. Knowing that which is around me is another. There are many surfaces and all are wonderous.

You cheapen the reality you live in by discarding this tiny planet and wanting that which is beyond it.

Instead one should encompass the whole of this so called reality.

Winter Wolf

BROOK 12-24-2009 11:18 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

It is the difference in knowledge and views that allow us to grow.


You cheapen the reality you live in by discarding this tiny planet and wanting that which is beyond it.

Instead one should encompass the whole of this so called reality.
With this I agree :naughty:

THE eXchanger 12-25-2009 12:31 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by BROOK (Post 208613)
:tease:

[B]Be careful what she suggests...
I've been told I'm a real roller coaster
[/B:]:tease:

i've NEVER been told anything :(
purr_haps, the cat got their tongue,
when i was NOT looking???:lmao:

:tease: + :tease: = :blowup: + :blowup:

Tango 12-25-2009 12:37 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Your, a Party in com pari son to me My dear, Brook....... LOL...


I'd be show'em bio feedback on changing the heart beat [BPM]....

Pump some Iron, while the music Pounds... Breathe... Feel the Arizona Sun on

your skin. It FEELS good to be alive... I got some things to show you...

A PK wheel to show you how to focus... So, you can SEE you produce

Electric...


Trooly,


Tango

P.S. Hi Susan, are you having F U N.......?

Quote:

Originally Posted by BROOK (Post 208613)
:tease:

Be careful what she suggests...I've been told I'm a real roller coaster...:tease:


Leunamros 12-25-2009 12:50 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by BROOK (Post 208588)
Well, in my experience, I have found that things will look much different after you've discovered the truth that you carry inside.


And it is far from boring. And also a neverending amount of information can be attained. The truth they did not want you to see. :naughty:

Happens the same discovering certain important outside truths.

Quote:

Originally Posted by WinterWolf (Post 208652)
I had to alter the quote to make room so I could see where I'm typing. Typing on the phone isn't always fun. xD

This tiny planet and the people who live on it each have somethng to offer whether you think you already know it or not. Once more your scoe is far too narrow. You are only scratching different surfaces an saying you already know it all.

If you have already learned everything already then why do you continue to reincarnated into a world/dimension/plane/reality where you know it all already? If you continue to come back time and time again to the same "space" then you have not found all that there is to find.

Winter Wolf

And you are here to challenge, to convince me you or anyone else are someone that has something of real interest to offer to me?. Maybe, or maybe not. Im not giving anyone the benefith of doubt: share the treasure or dont presume you have any that is interesting to me. Trying to convince me that you have something important to offer without offering that important thing, is silly. Be humble man.

You have a problem with me knowing all that i should know that people offered me?. Whatīs up man?. I should be like you, or something?.


You dont know me at all to judge me that lightly. But, once again, you dont get at all what im telling you. You see the words i put "i know all" and your eyes flashes "OMG! this guy knows it all!!, cannot be!, itīs a sin!!!". Indeed, you donīt listen, wich is your problem with what i have said.

I dont know "all", i just know a LOT of what i was interested in knowing. So much, that is hard and nearly impossible to find anymore. Only the most avant-garde explorers could offer me something interesting, not average truthseekers.

But im here to contribute, and to offer.

housemouse2 12-25-2009 01:24 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
if only I had time to be bored. :plane::newyear:

WinterWolf 12-25-2009 02:01 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Leunamros (Post 206715)
I have to deal with serious boredom syndrome.

My passion was truth seeking. And, nowadays, there is nothing to be found out there, or in the internet. I know everything, and this planet is small for me, thatīs all folks, life is hard...

Nothing humans ofer here or there is of any interest as i know it already or its outcome is predictable by my great intelligence, so...

I need to see beyond this boring planet, with boring people, with boring 2012 syndrome.

This is what you posted in your first post to this thread. I high-lighted, bolded, italicized and even colored green the very words you put down. You stated, "I know everything." So that pretty much means you know all.

Your latest reply to me, albeit rather hostile, indignant and seemingly threatened seems rather contradictory to me. First you state you know everything and now it is you know everything you wanted to know and no one and nothing has anything of worth to offer you. Well..except for some select few.

Do you not think that is limiting? Why limit yourself to only that which you want to know? I find that rather sad. Wouldn't living without mental boundaries be better than living with blinders on? Would that not be more satisfying?

Challenge you? I am sorry you feel that way. I am not attempting to challenge you in anything nor am I trying to convince you in anything. Why would I want to try to convince you in anything? Your mind is already made up. I am but stating my opinion and views on the comments you have posted.

I can not judge you for I do not know you. I am merely analyzing your comments and trying to see why you feel the way you do. Everything you have posted thus far in this thread only makes me think even more that you are limiting yourself.

Why would I want you to be just like me? In doing so, you lose your own sense of individuality. Be whatever you are.

Perhaps you do not understand what it is I am trying to say..what I am trying to offer. Perhaps it is far to subtle.

Sometimes I feel like I see too much and understand it too little to adequately convey to others what I "see."

To say I do not listen is laughable. I try to listen and understand that which I read or hear or see. I try to fully understand that which I am dealing with. When I do not quite understand, I question. How else would you learn if you never question?

Every day that I wake up, I am like a babe newborn to the world, wondering at the grandeur that is out there. Knowing that there are things out there that I have not seen, sensed in any way, shape or form. I have yet to experience that new thing, directly or indirectly.

I am like an ever thirsty sponge, waiting to soak up every bit of information, new or old, filing through it to keep the most precious at the top and filing away the lesser gems for safe keeping. Nothing is discarded but treasured.

Curious. Why are you here if only the avant-garde could even hope to stimulate your intellect? Perhaps you were hoping someone here could possible give you anything of interest since the world is boring and populated by boring people who are caught up with 2012.

Winter Wolf

THE eXchanger 12-25-2009 02:14 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Tango (Post 208722)
Trooly,Tango
P.S. Hi Susan, are you having F U N.......?

the "trooly" fun starts at 6:00am :mfr_lol:

right 'now' i am in the 'brook' :lmao:

good thing, i do NOT kiss and, tell :tease:

Scarab 12-25-2009 02:19 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
I heard some people talk to themselves.

Leunamros 12-25-2009 02:20 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by WinterWolf (Post 208765)
This is what you posted in your first post to this thread. I high-lighted, bolded, italicized and even colored green the very words you put down. You stated, "I know everything." So that pretty much means you know all.

Then i didnt explained well what i was meant to say. But now, man, I have explained you enough.

Is up to you to try to understand what i have told you personally. You make me waste my energies if you keep obsessed with the "i know it all" badly explained that i put in my first post.

WinterWolf 12-25-2009 02:29 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Scarab (Post 208775)
I heard some people talk to themselves.

I've heard that too. I think a lot of people may do it and don't wish to admit it.

To each their own I say.


Winter Wolf

Scarab 12-25-2009 02:29 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by kriya (Post 208293)
Just to clarify what I mean by suffering. Although God doesn't create suffering, He, himself doesn't suffer, He isn't affected by karma or suffering, like we are. We should view life like God does, as a huge cosmic drama.

However,IMO, I think a better way to view it is to say, that God does suffer through each of us as we suffer because He is part of us. I know anyone reading this will think its a complete contradiction, but the mysreries of life cannot be fathomed by rational thought, it goes beyond thought.

But for me, I take issue with the whole set up. If God doesn't have karma or suffering then nor should we.

Love,

Kriya

This will twist your mind.

What if GOD does have to deal with karma, but we don't? Maybe that's why He doesn't get involved in our affairs and lets us suffer the consequences of our free will.

WinterWolf 12-25-2009 02:34 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Leunamros (Post 208776)
Then i didnt explained well what i was meant to say. But now, man, I have explained you enough.

Is up to you to try to understand what i have told you personally. You make me waste my energies if you keep obsessed with the "i know it all" badly explained that i put in my first post.


Pity that you saw it as obsessing. I saw it as a contradictory statement that needed to be explained. Hence the questioning. You immediately went defensive and then attacked.

I understand what you are saying now that you've "explained" yourself. I simply do not agree with it.

Pity you didn't address anything else I said in reply to you. Oh well.

Ce la vie.

Winter Wolf

WinterWolf 12-25-2009 02:35 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Scarab (Post 208781)
This will twist your mind.

What if GOD does have to deal with karma, but we don't? Maybe that's why He doesn't get involved in our affairs and lets us suffer the consequences of our free will.

Hm. A very interesting twist indeed. I like it.


Winter Wolf

Leunamros 12-25-2009 02:38 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by WinterWolf (Post 208785)
Pity that you saw it as obsessing. I saw it as a contradictory statement that needed to be explained. Hence the questioning. You immediately went defensive and then attacked.

I understand what you are saying now that you've "explained" yourself. I simply do not agree with it.

Pity you didn't address anything else I said in reply to you. Oh well.

Ce la vie.

Winter Wolf

whatever.... im not interested in discussing further with you about it, im free to choose.

WinterWolf 12-25-2009 02:49 AM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by Leunamros (Post 208787)
whatever.... im not interested in discussing further with you about it, im free to choose.


That is your choice and you are free to choose it. Do what you want.

This...interaction no matter how ungainly is more information, more experience I did not have before. I am enriched by it even if it held no real value to me.


Winter Wolf

Gnosis5 01-05-2010 07:07 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed (Post 205169)
Well I know its going to take longer for me and i am trying to at least make it past my abuse scenario. Its going to take lots of work. My fear is that I might end up being one of those souls that end up in the state of decay and will end up being 'recycled'.

sorry for the pessimism

HA! That is sooo funny!! You know what? When I was in the Church of Scientology one day a very "high level" person told me that I was going to become a rock. That was equivalent to having the Pope tell a Catholic that they would burn in hell forever. Boy was intimidated.

Years later I leave the CofS and join with a select Freezone group, and you want to know what I found out? I found out that some people who are now very nice and normal people once were a rock!!! Oh, the joke was on me.
Quantum physicists could probably confirm that as they find out that everything contains consciousness.


Céline 01-05-2010 07:11 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Boredom???

that is so very sad...

Gnosis5 01-05-2010 07:13 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed (Post 205151)
WARNING: LOW LEVEL VIBRATION LINGERS HERE. (PLEASE TOLERATE MY DISTURBANCE.)

I am facing a certain dilemma: I believe that the divine plan is boring and worthless.
[snipped]
:nono:


That is very synchronistic. I just came out of a session wherein somewhere in my distant past, before I was a 3d body, I got drawn to a large crystal that was making the "AUM" sound vibration. I went inside the crystal and got hooked as if on some drug. And when I came out of the crystal I could no longer stand the current existence -- it seemed intolerably dull and boring. After that it was easy to trap me into crystals, and I saw how I was still re-enacting that drama this lifetime, an intolerance for things that I considered were dull and boring. Another compulsion healed.

Gnosis5 01-05-2010 07:16 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by haibane (Post 205160)
Erm, how do you know that is the truth? Btw if you continue searching, you'll never be bored again, and also you will most likely find out that your conclusions were a bit premature (^_^ )

Amen to that. The choice of seeking higher truths is the best adventure I have ever been on, and I am no longer addicted to having adventures either :original:

Gnosis5 01-05-2010 07:23 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed (Post 205190)
Well maybe I can utilize some of that Rons Org Scientology?

If one wishes to go the Scientology route I would recommend R3X which is an upgrade of the original Dianetics that got the whole movement going in the first place. Unfortunately, Dianetics did not get upgraded, only added onto. That has been corrected with R3X as far as I am seeing from a scientological perspective. But then I eschew levels and control and prefer simple, informal, natural path. I guess I am more Buddhic in my approach.

However, once a being can be trusted with his "siddhis" or powers then one could and should become fully "electrical". That is one aspect of ourselves, and I don't see why we cannot express it once we can trust ourselves.

Spiralina 01-06-2010 12:50 PM

Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?
 
Hi Yellowcosmicseed, broadcasting

May I suggest that you simply be here now?

According to maya's 8 division sky place teachings, 8 Division Sky Place is the Mayan heavenly existance meaning; you are who..... and what... where... when... and how... you're supposed to be.

The rest is thrown in... FYI


Ian Lungold covers 8 division sky place, in his lecture. If interested in Ian's lecture that also covers the 8 Division Sky Place of existance, google video Mayan Calendar Comes North. It's his three hour teaching on mayan calendars. I've watched it many times. :original: Deborah







Quote:

Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed (Post 205151)
WARNING: LOW LEVEL VIBRATION LINGERS HERE. (PLEASE TOLERATE MY DISTURBANCE.)

I am facing a certain dilemma: I believe that the divine plan is boring and worthless.

(I do suffer from affects of child neglect/abuse and am suspected to be on the autistic spectrum and I want to know if this is a factor to why I have been having the ponderings/conclusions/feelings that I have recorded here.)

Okay lets begin:

Everything began with nothingness/nonexistence (empty space), and then this became aware of itself and it manifested the great I AM. This led to the manifestation of all things that could possibly exist. This was accomplished through the appearance of light and vibration. Everything is made of vibration, and vibration is formless. This is how something comes out of nothing, the nothing uses vibration (made of formlessness) and condenses it to make something. So form is only merely the movement that lingers in the infinitive expanse of space/nonexistence. The purpose of the creation of form is for the 'One' to disidentify itself from all labels and things to go back to the peace state of 'Nonexistence'. Evil, suffering, and trial is used to progress the One back to the Peace state.

This is when I get depressed. Our existence is meant only to experience and combat evil?

I know the state of love and increased consciousness is great, but to what purpose? I totally despise the state of evil/suffering, but now I am getting distressed with the state of loving consciousness.

When an entity grows and evolves in loving consciousness then does that entity get to experience the joy of the feeling of being present in all possible experiences? When I get to that point in my train of thought I get an ugly feeling, because I then come to believe that the only mission of an entity of love consciousness is to go on its mission to combat other evils and guide others entities in their evolution. FOr some reason that sounds boring to me.

I want to have fun and joy in experiencing the many creations. But for some reason I think about how that joy does not bring true fulfillment.

I feel that the growth in loving consciousness only leads to unfulfilling glutonny of paradise and of the boring mission of combatting evil and guiding others in evolution. But the thing is I also despise service to self, because service to self and evil leads to never feeling fulfilled and eventually destroying one's self. I feel that existence is too boring. Increasing awareness of other realities feels unfulfilling to me, because they all hold the same trial of overcoming evil, in which I think that the overcoming of evil is also a boring feat.

Do I got the right picture here? Bear with me.

:nono:



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